The Rut

I've posted so many blogs today. I just have a lot that I want to say I guess. I don't think it's helped that I haven't been to school since Monday, I've been cooped up all alone asides from two visits to the doctor to dicuss my sex life (which turns out to be totally unrelated to what's wrong with me anyway.) But maybe its being alone thats left me to think so much, with noone to talk to my brain goes a little over-crazy sometimes.
I have been in a wonderful relationship for 8 months and 1 day now. I wouldn't change a second of it and I love the guy I'm with with all my heart. His name's Sam by the way. But I do worry about getting stuck in a rut. About getting too comfortable with each other and ending up in a routine relationship and just accepting it. Don't get me wrong there's nothing really wrong with that, but I often wonder if these things just get to a point where you're only together for the sake of it, you say "Goodnight, I love you," but its just empty words based on a routine. I'm not saying that this is what my relationship is like, at all. I just worry that maybe one day it will be. From an outside perspective that is what marriage looks like to me. What it all boils down to is that I struggle to imagine being with someone for that long (I'm talking decades) and just staying with them, and every day being different. Maybe its just a naiive perspective, but I swear that every married couple just stays in, does the same thing day in, day out, maybe has a bottle of wine and watches X factor on a Saturday night but doesn't do anything that furthers their relationship. Maybe it gets to a stage where you don't need to. Where the love you feel is so unconditional that nothing challenges it. Or maybe you just settle into the aforementioned routine. I guess we'll see. (I'll reblog on the subject when i'm 40.)